I want to talk about a condition which I have and isn’t known much about; Misophonia.
I have a problem. I hate certain sounds. People tapping their feet or drumming their fingers. People who chew loudly or with their mouths open. People who smack their lips together. People who say “shhhhhh”. Audible music from headphones, inaudible mumbling from quiet conversations. Even the motion of the foot tapping below is causing my heart to beat faster and my annoyance to grow.
The thing is, it’s not just a case of finding the noise mildly annoying. I don’t just “hate it”. I find it unbearable, I feel uncomfortable and I start to feel rage towards the person making the noise. My fight or flight response kicks in and unfortunately in my case, my fight mode is to start shaking and crying with anger.
I remember feeling this way about noises since I was at least 14 years old and with time, it’s got worse. I dread getting the bus in case there’s an “offender”. I don’t listen to music on the bus as I’m paranoid people can hear my music and I’m just as bad as the “offenders” are.
I’m not too bad with people I know now, as I’m confident enough to ask them to shut up, but I don’t imagine strangers would take too kindly to me doing the same to them!
It’s become so bad that my GP has now put me on the waiting list for CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) to try and help retrain my brain to not be bothered by noises and to find coping strategies.
What coping strategies do you have for combating annoyances in your lives? x